Happy New Year

"Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right."

Oprah nailed that on the head! I feel 2010 was a huge life lesson for me... I was never the one to make a list because really I didn't care much to change I just thought it's just another day but it's not... it's a new begining for a lot of people. It's the time to say thank you for all the good and a good Eff-you to the bad. So here I am making my list of what I want to accomplish in 2011 wish me luck and Happy New Year!

My List for 2011

Stop Yelling

Start taking more pictures of EVERYTHING

Be a better house wife

Start doing Yoga with my daughter

Get pregnant

Lose weight

Finish the kids room

Finish my room

Happy Birthday Jax!

Happy Birthday

to my sweet, gentle, caring little boy! He is such an amazing addition to our family and has brought us so many good memories and given us so many reasons to smile! He really is such a special little boy!

Here are some of my favorite pics of him over the last year!

I seriously can't get enough of his dimples!

I had to do one with is best friend in the world!

TTC

I never knew what TTC was until I was Trying To Conceive myself and it's been 4 months now and no baby. With Alexa and Jaxon they were one timers! I would think about being pregnant and there I find myself pregnant shortly after. I am not complaining about ttc because I am so grateful I got to have my babies... I also don't think I won't be able to get pregnant... I'm just going through the whole process of the waiting game! Good thing I'm a pretty patient person. I'm not gonna lie though it is a little depressing month after month wanting a baby so badly and being told no not this month. I am going to see my doctor and see if something is wrong just because I've had some other lady problems like cysts and what not but I'm not gonna lie... I have an odd feeling that something isn't right. I'm hoping for the best and expecting the worse, like I always do. I will keep my head up and I will stay happy and busy because of my two little monsters! Maybe hopefully someday soon I will be able to become pregnant and complete my cute little family!! *fingers crossed*

Homemade For The Holliday!

I am pretty excited for Christmas! If I didn't have kids I probably wouldn't be so dang excited. The thought of them coming out Christmas morning seeing all the presents "Santa" brought them is gonna be so cool! Also I know right now a lot of people are having a hard time getting Christmas for their families and some people feel bad if you get them something and they just didn't have to money to get you something soooo here is what I'm doing.... making all the gifts I give to people by hand! I have sooooo many cute ideas and with help from my loving friend Tess this Christmas will be pretty awesome! We both are going to be busting our butts to make it all happen! I wanna give a sneak peak of all the cute things but people who are receiving these gifts all read my blog so I will be keeping it hush hush for now. Well that's pretty much all I wanted to blog about!

The Journey

I'm alone a lot lately and I like it so much but then too much of a good thing can become a bad thing... I'm not sure if this is one of those things though, I guess we will see because honestly I don't see that changing anytime soon... plus if I surround myself with too many people all I start to see is the things about them that bug me and I come to realize I don't have a lot in common with most people. That or I just don't care to make friends with everyone! I know those kind of people and it makes me sad to think that people surround themselves with people no matter what or who they are, because they need to be friends with EVERYONE. I'm not a therapist or anything of the sort but to me that just shows a lack of confidence in who you are and maybe a little confusion to who they are, or hell they just like being center of attention... either way I'm far from ever wanting that. I hate attention unless it's from people that are important to me in my life. I've disconnected my self from a lot lately, like some family and really it's because I can't stand watching people abuse people the way they do... I'm not naming names because really it's not important. I need to separate myself because of the hate that builds in me and starts to take over so all in all being alone is my therapy, it's my comfort.