Storms and clouds

Well, storms and clouds really are some of my favorite things!! Even as a kid this was my favorite kind of weather... I would sneak out and play in the rain lay on the ground enjoying the weather... I also have the best memory of running around in the rain for a long time with my little brother and a neighbor kid! Best kid memory I can remember.

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves

Well, lately I have been having some really different views on life and knowing what I know now I need to make some serious changes in my life so that I can be healthier, happier, and all around a better me. I need to this for me and my kids so that they can have me at my best! I wanna be a happier person and I want to be a better mom to my kids... and I know that all of us moms are always striving to be better mothers and what not but I really wanna try a lot harder! I'm actually pretty happy with the changes I've made already like spending more time with us as a family and working on mine and Eric's relationship ( nothing happened just wanna keep things happy!) I haven't had such a clear head in a long time and I'm happy that I made these changes with no influences at all! I didn't do it because of a friend or family member I did it for me! I honestly can say I feel so much better about it because of that!

Getting Back To What I Love

I'm not sure what it is about fall that I love ... the cold breeze during the day, how cold it gets at night or is it the fact I LOVE WEARING JACKETS! love them seriously my favorite article of clothing! There are just so many cute jackets out there!!!

Another thing I love is photography and I know A LOT of people have this as a hobby but really when I'm taking pictures I see the world in such a different way! I love where my lenses takes me! As silly as that sounds it's the truth! I want to take more pics of my son cause lets face it he's cute... not just baby cute like he's really cute! ha ha ( Yeah I'm one of THOSE moms!) anyways I know the exact outfit and everything!!! I found it on crazy 8 this morning *my favorite place to shop for clothes for my kids* Anyways I'll get back to what I wanted to post about in the first place! Taking pictures again... I'm just gonna go one day and do them! I need more time outside and I need to do more things that I love doing and I believe I've lost sight of that! Well here are some of my favorite pics I've done !

How time fly's

Today was the first day of pre school for Alexa and she was soooo excited to go. We were both up till 1am cause we were so nervous... I'm sure for different reasons!

It's been really hard on me and wow she's only been gone an hour! I feel like such a baby! It didn't hit me until I noticed Jaxon hadn't stopped crying sense we left her at school. I could feel that he was missing her it was kind of obvious because he would cry and point at her empty car seat. Finally he settled down after I put on some backyardagains for him.

I am so excited for Alexa to grow up but I'm kind of selfish and want her to slow down a little for me. I held my not so little girl last night and cried myself to sleep... not sad tears but happy tears that she has grown into such and amazing loving girl and I couldn't be happier that she is mine!

Good Day!

Well I have to admit that it's been a long time sense I had a really good day!! I spent time with some friends and my family and it was a blast! We went to 7 peaks for a few hours and besides all the traffic from the BYU game it was a pretty non stressful day. What makes me even happier is that the day is not over! I am in the mood to do so much and to make as many memories as I can! Well today was a good day and I really needed it!!

Bad Day

Hello bad day please go away so that your badness won't rub off on tomorrow!

I hate birth control

I really hate birth control! It makes me all wacky! I gain weight and I cry a LOT! I'm so excited that I have less than a week left of it. I even decided to try one month earlier so I didn't have to be on it anymore!!! Oh well I'm excited to see if it was worth even taking! crossing my fingers!