A Fresh Start

So lately things have been up and down a lot I haven't been able to get to a happy place and I think it's because I stress way to much and I care too much, and I truly believe that is stopping me from achieving what I want most right now.

I'm learning to let go of things and forgive those who have been rude or done and said things behind my back... even if they didn't ask to be forgiven. I like to keep my feelings inside so I'm sure those people didn't even know to ask for forgiveness! I'm giving up this stupid fight and moving on with my life... I'm sick of caring for people who don't even care about themselves and trying to stick for them when it is obviously not my place.

I can admit when I am wrong and say that I get too involved in crap that just doesn't matter, and now I'm done I'm washing my hands clean and starting all over again and it feels amazing! I just hope I can keep going this way and not get distracted on what my goals are and to never lose sight of what I want!

I can't help but laugh a little!

So I haven't had better luck or anything like that but for some reason I'm happy even though so many things around me should make me feel sad, bothered, stressed. I don't know how I'm actually not letting things stress me out... Lately I've had to deal with a lot of negative people and people who like to make things a bigger deal than they really are and I just can not stand those kind of people. But I'm happy to say they aren't effecting me negatively also I can't help but laugh a little.

I really really wanna go to Gardner Village it's such a beautiful place to go and shop I love it. I'll show some pictures so you can see it if you haven't yet!! Even if you don't buy a thing it's really just an awesome experience.

I've had a really fun weekend getting my house all organized it's really hard to organize sometimes but even harder to keep it that way! I just want to do better and not let it get so un organized! Thank you Jess for watching my little Alexa while we did it. I really wanna go to Ikea and get stuff to organize my closet with cause really... I take up a lot of the closet space and well we need more space for Eric's things!

Stressed

Today is a pretty stressful day for me... things are starting to set in and the stress is starting to get to me emotionally. I'm having a hard time accepting that this is it for me... this is my life... don't get me wrong I love being a Mom there's no doubt about that... but the fact that this is all I am or will be can't be right and as of this time that's all I am. It's a hard job and I'm always thinking I could do better. I just need to remind myself that this is the sacrifice I make to be a mom, and a stay at home mom. I just hope something good happens soon... my luck has been awful lately!

Family Is Everything

Life can really throw some hard things our way but I am really happy that I have a such a strong support system and my amazing family. I love how Eric's always there for me when I start to freak a little and start to stress but he always manages to calm me down and help me through the hard times. I'm really lucky to have these amazing people in my life.

Family is what makes you feel happy when you feel sad,
Family is what inspires you when you feel down,
Family is what which helps you in all circumstances of life,
In fact, Family is everything for me

Halloween Month!

Well, lately I've been spending a lot of my time with my kids and doing fun activities with them! It's been a blast and has made us a stronger closer family and I love it.

Other than focusing on my beautiful family I've been doing a lot of nothing... haha yeah. Things will be changing though because it's October... my favorite month EVER! haha I love decorating and watching scary movies I love everything about october! Cloudy days, cold nights that alone is a good setting for a spooky month! Alexa is exactly like me and loves this month as well! October 1st she asks " MOM is it halloween yet!?" and of course I scream with her and cheer cause it's halloween month! We are nuts... but that's ok with us :)