Feeling It

Sometimes it feels like I've never left high school. I mean it's the same stupid shit... just a new day and the situation is a little different. ( oh jeez I hate that I can't say situation without thinking about that orange freak from TV.) Anyways, sometimes I feel like my friends really aren't my friends... I can probably count on one hand who I think is seriously a genuine friend. No one has really done me wrong or anything like that I don't feel anger or rage towards someone I'm just looking deeper into my life and people that I surround myself with.

So on the other hand life is going ok... I hate dealing with the stress life brings me day to day, but eh it's part of life. My kids are getting so big... Jaxon turned 1 and Lexa turned 4 I just feel like life is FLYING by me. I feel like I'm still 18 and reality is... I'm not. I feel like it's gonna be too late for me to make some serious changes in my life if I don't start making those changes now I don't want it to be too late! So many things have been on my mind lately and I don't really want to share it with the world but long story short I want my memory erased! ha ha no not really, because what I've gone through has seriously changed me as a person, Mother, wife and friend. It just sucks that we have to deal with such bullshit to see a bigger picture. Well I gotta get some stuff ready for our dinner plans so peace. :)