Hold On To What You Believe

I cant promise you that I wont let you down
And I
I cant promise you that I will be the only one around
When your hope falls down
But were young
Open flowers in the windy fields of this war-torn world
And love
This city breathes the plague of loving things more than their creators

I ran away
I could not take the burden of both me and you
It was too fast
Casting love on me as if it were a spell I could not break
When it was a promise I could not make

But what if I was wrong?

But hold on to what you believe in the light
When the darkness has robbed you of all your sight

And now this land
Means less and less to me without you breathing through its trees
At every turn
The water runs away from me and the halo disappears
And the hole when youre not near

So what if I was wrong?

But hold on to what you believe in the light
When the darkness has robbed you of all your sight

So hold on to what you believed in the light

Weight Loss Update and Life

Alright... well, lately I've been way way way sick! It was like nothing I've ever felt in my life!!! Body aches, fever, bronchitis.... it sucks and I'm off my antibiotics but I can't seem to get all this crap out of my lungs so I sounds like a 60 year old smoker!! BLAH!!! Anyways, me and Eric have decided to put off on having a baby right now we tried for 7 months and nothing so we decided to take the spring and summer off and try this fall... maybe... Plus I'm now thinking there are things that I need to get done before having another child, like take care of me and my personal needs, and maybe live a little more I'm only 24 and I feel like I'm 34... not that 34 is old I just feel 10 years older than I should, I think.... Any who. The whole weight loss thing is still going I didn't get to blog about it last week because I was so ill and didn't leave my bed, and I lost 2 pounds last week and for reasons I won't say I put those 2 back on... I will promise I did not cheat or eat badly, but I have lost those 2 pounds and I have a feeling I'll lose more by the end of this week so that should be good!! I am pretty proud of myself for eating healthy and keeping this weight off! I know I didn't lose another 7 pounds, but I knew I couldn't lose 7 pounds EVERY week! I know I want to try to lose more than 2 this week so I will let you know how that goes! Also after I can breathe again I need to start working out and I have a friend who is always down to workout and kick butt so that's a plus! Wish me luck and thanks! :)

Weightloss and LIfe

So this last week I have been extremely bored... except last night me and Eric finally got to go on a date and we totally needed it! I love going on dates and we really don't get to go out very often! Alright so I'm still dieting doing better I feel it's getting a little easier and seeing the weight coming off helps! 2 weeks and I'm down 14 pounds! I'm happy with it but I know it's not always this easy to lose weight you hit a mark and it takes a lot more than just eating right. I've been looking into some personal trainers and different things that would work for me... I wanna do something fun when it comes to working out so I'm down to try whatever! I'm trying Zumba next week... that seems to be the big thing right now, and I've heard it's pretty fun so I'll try it! I didn't cheat as bad this weekend but still had the same results so oh well I'm just happy the numbers are going down not up! Hopefully I can keep losing!

Progress Is Progress

In my last post I was talking about dieting and how bad it blows... and yes I still have the same views on it, but I must say 7 lbs lost isn't bad for one week! The crappy thing is the weekends... I always cheat! I hate that I cheat... I need to stop it. I didn't even work out I just ate better and stayed busy with kids and house work. I haven't just been trying to lose weight I've been trying to be a better me and I think I've made really great progress with it all! I'm holding strong, and I always feel like the first week is the easiest so hopefully I don't eff it up! Fixing what's wrong is hard, doing wrong is easy. Wish me luck, and for anyone who reads this if you have goals and are doing a good job keeping them well, thumbs up and keep up the hard/good work!

Realizing I'm Different Today!

Dieting... I hate it... I'm horrible at it... BUT this year I am a little more motivated to do something about it! It's weird just waking up one day an being like today is the day I try to change my life, I really love this feeling. I hope to keep this feeling going because I really need it! I think I'm just going to go cold turkey on the whole soda thing as well... anyone who knows me knows I love my coke I can't resist it, but like I said, something is different about me and all I can do is hope it stays with me! Maybe it's the weather or maybe something more... either way I need to jump on it and keep it alive! ha ha. Well other than that nothing new really just doing a lot of reading and cleaning and blah blah blah ( ya know the usual mom things). I wanna start playing tennis this spring and summer I think it's a fun way to exercise and finally do something with my brother! He is a huge fan of tennis and loves to play... I think he is the only one I know who actually likes it. Anyways I hope I can stay strong on what I want to do and try to be healthier I know I need it... I don't want to get to a point where it's too late! Wish me luck!!!

Falling

"They are so absorbed in each other it's beautiful. It's like nothing else exists just them and their beautiful harmony. They are so connected in their own little perfect beautiful, peaceful, musical world... can't get enough of them"

Finally Feeling Something.

So I haven't blogged in a while and that's because every time I went to say something I realized I had nothing to say... it's been weird. So lately we've just been doing a lot of stuff with Alexa and her schooling trying to get her ready for Kindergarten! She is so excited to go next year, although we will miss her Pre school teacher so much!!! She is such an amazing person and an example of what all teachers should be! She believes in her students and makes them believe in themselves. Me and Eric are doing great Eric turned 25 yesterday and we had a nice quiet dinner to ourselves and that was really nice! I can't believe how old we are getting! I swear it was just yesterday that we met! Being high school sweethearts and making it this far is such an accomplishment and such a trial ...really. I love how we are still best friends and how we still joke and laugh and fight and love.... it's good. we are really quiet opposite sometimes and I think that adds a lot of character to our relationship being able to have different opinions so the other can see another point of view is nice. Now I'm just babbling but really love your significant other for who they are and your differences :)