The Story Of My Life

Why do I care so much

Why do I believe in the wrong people

Why am I so gullible

Why do I get my heart Involved

Why am I a target

Why...

Love

"What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction."

-Chuck Palahniuk

Happiness

Happiness is something worth fighting for... I've learned that the hard way, and I also feel like it has taken me such a long time to figure that out. I have been visiting my past a lot lately and talking to old friends and it's been fun they are pretty amazing people.

A little update on my weight loss... I've lost 33 lbs so far and I'm happy about it! I'm working so hard to get this weight off! I eat really really healthy and I work out 4-5 days a week!! My neighbor Jess is my little workout buddy and I love how motivated we keep each other, and how we push each other to do more and be stronger. I love this new found me... I will never let go of this person in me right now because for once in my life I am taking charge and making changes and being who I really am! For once I know I am on the right path!

Remember: Work for a cause, not for applause. Live to express, not to impress!

The Big 30!

Whoo I did it! I've lost 30 lbs yay me! 20 more to go :)

Wish me luck!

Goals

Alright well, I'm not Too happy about where I'm at with my weight loss, but really I can't complain! I'm almost down 30 pounds! I need to be happy with that... even though I am 5 lbs less then what I wanted for this month... I know I did good I am just so mad at myself for not trying harder to reaching that goal. I am gonna look at the positive about this and I still have 2 days to lose more haha, no I do not believe I can lose 5 lbs in 2 days! Overall I believe I am happy with 10lbs lost this month... I just know I need to work harder to reach my overall goal by June 1st! After I reach my first goal I'll set another! I know I can do this... for the first time in my life I believe in myself and the fact that I can accomplish anything I want as long as I am committed and have the motivation! Wish me luck!

Mandy

Life

Well lately I have been thinking about the past so much. I miss it... I hate thinking about it because it's the past and it's not like I can go back and live those days again. Oh well, I haven't been great with the whole weight loss thing I have only lost one more pound so 26 lbs lost but hey at least I am losing! haha, anyways I really wanna hit my goal so I am gonna be working my butt off this next week and a half I need to do this for me, I need to prove to myself I can do it and that I'm strong enough to stick to something for more than 2 months! I only know if I keep going on the path that I'm on I can keep some real happiness about myself, because it's been a long time sense I've been happy with how I look. I am a stay at home mom and my whole life is kids and home I was even horrible with keeping up on the day to day things and I believe I've changed in that area in a huge way! Anyways I'm getting there I feel happier everyday I don't want to lose this... EVER!!! Wish me luck! :)

Quick Update

Here is a quick update on life and what not... I've lost 25 lbs and I'm happy about it! I hope to lose another 25 sooner than later :). I didn't work out much this weekend just because I really didn't feel good. Me and the family are doing good working on some things at the moment but for the most part everything is good.